Awareness – Mental Health.

This week is Mental Heath Awareness Week in Queensland, Australia.

Usually, I find it uplifting and helpful but for some reason – not this year!  I feel totally disconnected from myself and my needs (and they are many, believe me).  The world and those who live here, are colouring my view of myself and the things I am supposed to be doing.

Yesterday, I had got up at 6:15am and showered and even dressed ready for work, when I looked down and saw that my feet were so swollen I couldn’t get any shoes on. So I went and lay down on my bed, propped my feet and legs up on pillows and dozed for a couple of hours but as soon as I stood up … balloon feet once again!  I decided then and there that I would lie on the couch, in the air conditioning, with my feet up for the rest of the day!  Which is exactly what I did.

Today I got up at 6:15am, showered and washed my hair, found suitable clothes to wear  for work but didn’t get dressed, rather because I was feeling so physically  “off”, I laid down on my bed and the next time it looked at the time it was 11:15am!!!  I had been in bed before midnight (a reasonable time for me) and had slept right through until 6:15am when my alarm went off.  So I can’t blame lack of sleep – hello depression!

It is now mid afternoon and I still haven’t eaten because I really need to go grocery shopping and if I shop on an empty stomach, I will buy all measure of evil food rather than healthy suitable food.  But I really don’t have much food in my fridge/pantry …. and on and on the vicious cycle goes.  Of course, there is my upset stomach to consider as well – so I am steaming up some potatoes to eat.

I missed bin day – it was today, and already the rubbish is beginning share it’s odour with the cat’s litter tray that also needs changing!  All these things need to be dealt with but all I really want to do is lie on the couch and watch TV.  That’s not even possible because about a week ago my television stopped working and I think I worked out that the extended warranty ran out a couple of months ago.  This what an almost functioning, depressed me looks like.

Welcome to Mandy’s Mental Health Awareness Week!

Mandy

Hi, I’m Mandy! Wandering my way through life using words. Family and friends. Connection and community. I care. I write. I share. I post every Monday, Wednesday and Friday and if you’d like receive updates via email please click HERE.

2 Comments
  1. It just is – accepance if self
    Its round the other way – 😩
    Your world is a reflection of your self
    Your perception
    Change this and your world changes
    Your true identity is just perfect
    One with everything connected and not separate from God one consciousness so now
    I work on myself and find it useless to try and change the outside
    Its a waste of your energy
    It just us go with the flow
    Acceptance of real self
    Acceptance of being……
    ♥️

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