Sometimes in my day I find myself looking for uplifting and prayerful music. This has been happening quite frequently over the last few weeks, as my doctors and I fiddle around with my medication – trying to settle on the correct dose for me. One of the symptoms I get with my depression in an extremely ‘busy’ mind. My brain does not stop and this makes me weary – mentally! When my mood is low, my motivation is low …. but somehow my mind just keeps on racing through the day and most of the night.
A few weeks ago, I mentioned that I was listening mostly to instrumental music because music with lyrics interrupted my writing. This is still the case but unfortunately as I shied away from songs – I was spending more and more time alone with my thoughts. Over-thinking and going around in circles with my thoughts was not helpful and so my doctor and I decided that I could only listen to instrumental music when I was writing and any other time needed to have words.
With this in mind, I went in search of soothing, calming, encouraging songs and while I was looking, I remembered this one by David Hass. I first heard it sung by an all male, college choir, which I am very partial too! My Boys went to an all boys school and one of the things that I miss the most, is the singing by the boys. Anyway, it wasn’t their school, but another and it sounded beautiful and rich and soothing and I wept like a baby! I decided that this was a perfect song to listen to this week, in attempt to calm my thoughts. You Are Mine, is a Christian song that talks about the love and protection of God. It is definitely a prayer.
I haven’t spoken much about my faith here on my blog. But I haven’t NOT talked about it either. This hasn’t been on purpose but I’ve chosen to include any mentions as naturally as possible. I don’t intend to change this but I will state here that – Yes, I have a strong relationship with God but over the years my relationship with the institution of the church has taken a battering! It has been almost 25 years since I have been an actual functioning member of a church, but of late I have noticed a yearning for community and have been taking tentative steps back in the direction of my Christian roots, That is all I intend to write about this here, except to say – enjoy this beautiful hymn.